About a month ago, I turned 20. I don't know how I'm suppose to feel about the fact that I'm no longer a teenager. Feels like I'm being forced into adulthood when I'm not ready yet.
Typically as you age, you think some things would somehow get easier; at least I think so. I don't think they get easier though. I think you just get used to certain things and circumstances and they don't stress you out as much. More often than not, I impatiently wait for a certain phase of my life to be over and done with so I can move on to something new. This isn't particularly something I'm happy about because (warning: cliche overload ahead) instead of just fully maximizing the current state of my life, I hastily await for my future. Some people might try to find a way or two to improvise their "now" but not me. I stick to what I know and I don't bother exploring the possibilities. Actually, this is just me ranting about Uni. I've been here for two years and I still really can't wait to leave. On the upside, I'm in my third and final year so this time next year, I won't be here anymore, yay!
Anyway, regarding my birthday, I had a small celebration on the eve of the 17th. It was just a nice, quiet dinner with my family, boyfriend and my sibling's dates. At 1am on the 17th I was actually plastered on my laptop cause I was eagerly trying to score tickets to a show which now that I think about it, is probably not something you should be doing on your birthday.
So on the day itself, I went out with my parents looking for furniture (something a birthday girl shouldn't be doing too). I came home to this, haha. My friends, Emily and Hana came over to transform my room into a botanical garden. Lol no. I mentioned matte black balloons and white peonies on twitter and my best friend, who is in the States right now, masterminded this whole operation and got these two poor girls to become gardeners. It was the cutest thing ever. Also, they got me my current favourite cake, which just in case if anybody else plans to get me, is salted caramel mille crepe cake from Food Foundry. Hehe.
And this^ was given to me on like the 30th of May or something by my boyfriend. It says HBB LA as in Happy Belated Birthday Lisa Ameera. I think he thinks the entire month of May was dedicated to me turning 20.
Just to put this out there, um, last year I was on the phone with Haqim at midnight on my birthday. He he played a video of like a bunch of people singing happy birthday together in the background and I still think it's the funniest thing ever.